i sometimes am amazed on how i survived till this day for i have come to a conclusion that i am a very lazy brat and a total slacker. yes, and here i am complaning.

i'm supposed to practice very hard for my piano exams which are like two months away, but somehow another, everytime i practice i just don't want to practice anymore. it often gets my mum to push me twice a day just to play this piano of mine. its funny really, cause i really want to do well, but i'm expecting this miracle to drop by on me and say "hey, i'll help you pass your piano exams today."

i'm really behind scales (can't seem to remember any except those i've been playing all my life) my second and third pieces are really shit. i'm being honest, not modest.

i will feel guilty for not playing each day or playing a really short time for that intentional boost that i actually finished something i'm supposed to do each day. but really? i'm not doing anything about it.

just like how i'm not doing half of the things i'm guilty for.
it's stupid complaining, but hey, i'm human.

i think that's the problem.